maybe it's just that time, maybe it's the universe doing it's thing, but 80 percent of my convos these days are about how to live a life worth living, and how no one really knows what the hell is happening but we're waking up and wondering what we're supposed to do about it all now.
advice from 3 wise humans
Rainer Maria Rilke:
You are so young, so much before all beginning, and I would like to beg you, dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
Where the needs of the world and your talents cross, there lies your vocation.
Something that worked for me was imagining that where I wanted to be – an author, primarily of fiction, making good books, making good comics and supporting myself through my words – was a mountain. A distant mountain. My goal. And I knew that as long as I kept walking towards the mountain I would be all right. And when I truly was not sure what to do, I could stop, and think about whether it was taking me towards or away from the mountain.
& a snippet from Maya Angelou, reflecting on the moment - at 22, a single mother working two jobs - she thought maybe she could be somebody, someday.
My mother stopped me and said, “Baby.”
I walked back to her.
“Baby, I’ve been thinking and now I am sure. You are the greatest woman I’ve ever met.”
She continued, “You are very kind and very intelligent and those elements are not always found together. Mrs. Eleanor Roosevelt, Dr. Mary LcLeod Bethune, and my mother – yes, you belong in that category. Here, give me a kiss.”
My policy of independence would not allow me to accept money or even a ride from my mother, but I welcomed her wisdom. Now I thought of her statement. I thought, “Suppose she is right. She’s very intelligent and she often said she didn’t fear anyone enough to lie. Suppose I really am going to become somebody. Imagine.”
At that moment … I decided the time had come when I should cut down on dangerous habits like smoking, drinking, and cursing.
Imagine, I might really become somebody. Someday.